How does one prepare for possible life-changing surgery? It's the eve of Mom's open heart surgery and, although she seems pretty calm, I'm feeling very unsettled. This afternoon, Mom showed me where she keeps important papers, "...in the event of my demise." Ack! But she also assured me, "I'm not throwing in the towel yet."
We bought Mom a cell phone (her first), so she knows she can contact us at any time. Just a bit ago we sat down for a lesson, and reviewed the cheat sheet I wrote up with basic instructions.
Clearly, my mother is in a place where she is prepared to take things as they come. She has trust in her medical professionals, and in her own will to carry on. "No one has more interest in my recovery than I", she reminded me this morning.
When you go through something like this with a parent, it's impossible not to obsess a little about how your own old age might unfold. What body parts or functions will fail first? How will we respond? Do we have the will to carry on through disabilities? OK, now I'll be staring at the ceiling tonight when I go to bed.
I know; it's the Circle of Life - but I still want my Mommy! Please say a prayer or two for us tonight and tomorrow.